Ok, now I am really going to continue with the love dimensions, in the second part of this blog.
In the previous blog, I was walking the point of love within relationships and now I am going to walk the same point, in relation with those things that we appreciate: hobbies, job, money, etc. Why am I saying this? It is quite simple, really.
See, we are no longer shown by our society to really take care of our personal belongings, everything is plastic and recyclable, and it breaks veeeerrrryyy easy, I mean, think about it, one is no longer able to say that we were able to really get to know how the things really worked because it got broke and now one have to buy another because is irreparable, I mean, you lose it and now the damn thing is useless, the same thing like in relationships, I mean, we don´t like one person and we only change it for another, it is recyclable, it is profitable.
Unfortunately, this is not a joke; I was looking at a movie of the 50s, and you know what, I was going like: “Shit man, these people are fucking crazy, I mean, even the clowns in that time were black and white, where are the fucking colors? this is like invaded by mimes…”, but there was something peculiar about the people and their manners, all things were given more caring and obtained a much longer use, the same with relationships, (not disregarding the separation of the society due to money), they used to last much longer, maybe due to the matter that we used to give them more care.
What has become more important obviously, is the value of money, because if you no longer need the ability to repair or to take care of something, what is it that you are going to need? The acquisitive power that made possible the first possession of the same product, and within that, a new entire politic of competence came about, with the industrial revolution and you know the history…, a new concept came about “unemployment” and so on, and what happened with those things to which we used to gave so much time and care?
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing relationships because I see that I have gave them value separated from me instead of allowing me to see what is it that I value so much within them so that I am able to create that within myself so that I don´t need or require another to be able to live
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that when the people say the phrase “I can´t live without you” it means that “my system program is dependent of your existence so that I am able to function as I do”, and within that I have created fear of loss to create a defense mechanism for my ego instead of allowing me to realize that who I am is not limited by a definition or value judgment placed on another
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that the relationships have an important value because without them the world cannot function and without them I cannot function
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that for me to be able to develop effective relationships is necessary that first I allow myself to develop that which I have believed that I am not and within that, to get sure that I don´t create relationships from the starting point of searching for that in another which I have believed that I don´t have within myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to search for relationships so that I am able to have sex, because I have not allowed myself to see that in sex there is intimacy, trust, honesty, expression that I have not developed within me as I am searching for it in another, not realizing that it is not possible for me to find trust, intimacy, expression, honesty in another where it doesn’t exist within me.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that to care doesn’t mean to give more time or money, or “love” to another but to give it to oneself, and that means that whenever I claim to search for appreciation or time to spend with another it is because I have not allowed me to appreciate me and to give that time to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself through the experience of loneliness to create within that negative charge a polarity which is the desire for a relationship and within this I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to create competition as the negative experience so that I am able to get recognition which is the positive experience within relationships as one needs to be recognized as worthy of, and enough to be able to be in a relationship
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the energetic experience of being unworthy, less than or inferior if I didn’t had the relationships that I were supposed to have, and I see that a relationship is not only the relationship with one human being, it is also the relationships with ideas, with those points of value in separation of myself because, the relationship that I have with sports for instance will be reflected in the ideas that I wear and move accordingly and that evaluation as judgments that we make of one person in our heads is the reflection of the scan that we make of one person and that we define as worthy of, less than, superior or inferior, etc.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take personally the words of the people when they made value judgments over me, through defining myself as those judgments in which I have placed value and worth
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the fear of losing relationships is not only the fear of losing one human being, but an entire amount of definitions and values that I have placed in separation of myself and therefore the fear of being alone is the fear of not being able to have those relationships because I have not allowed me to see that I am able to create that which I believe is in separation of me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the victim within my mind for not having a relationship which is equal to want to get attention from the people in the most desperate way to be able to hide and fulfill all my inadequacies that I have believed me to be really me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to go into a relationships to be able to hide those points in which I have not stand up, as all as one as equal as life, because I have created the idea that somehow I require something that makes me more than another
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I need or require relationships because apparently it is part of “human nature” to have relationships and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create relationships of dependency towards other people, instead of allowing me to see and realize that I am able to live without those relationships because I am able to develop the skills that I have believed myself to not be
I will continue on this point on the next blog
Till the next joke…