Today I am going to write a little bit about self honesty and what does self honesty has been during my process.
I believed that Self Honesty was the result of the application of the tools of self forgiveness, Self Writing, Breath, Common sense, yet, something quite interesting became quite obvious as I begun to notice how I was falling from my commitment over and over again.
To do the process means nothing if the starting point is self dishonest, you know, I created the idea and construct that, what I am was the knowledge and information that I was getting from the application of the tools, or the knowledge from the interviews from the portal and so on, but what was really interesting is that, all of that became meaningless in the moment that I begun to ask to myself “is this all there is”?
And then I begun to write, but this time, in a different way, this was a new commitment that I did with myself, the simple act of writing, expressing and LISTENING TO MYSELF, seeing in my words what I was accepting and allowing.
Then what I notice, was the inner pain and anxiety within my body, and I saw my pain and my anxiety, and I could saw why was that I had the pain, the origin of my pain and my anxiety, the search for energy that was just reflecting to me the obvious addiction to energy.
The biggest mistake that I did, was to define myself accordingly to the knowledge and information that I was getting, and also the memories that I was deconstructing, because I had fear of giving up the energy of the memories, the fear of losing “who I have believed myself to be”, and within that, what I understood, was that to have knowledge and information doesn’t mean that you already know yourself, to get to know oneself means to see who self is without any definition or reference that one can have in regards to knowledge or information about self, I mean, the knowledge is cool to be able to allocate where we are in our process, but that is not going to support you to be self honest
The starting point, of self in every moment of breath, must be self honesty, because when one project self honesty “out there” then one is not seeing and realizing the responsibility for oneself that we actually are in ourselves as ourselves
till the next joke…