(Returning after my exams period, sorry for the delay…)
Continuing with the love dimensions part 2
What I was able to notice, on this exams period, i show much I got distracted while studying with the desire of sex and relationships, and I mean its quite obvious that if one is placing so much attention to something in the mind, it will be quite difficult to focus on two things at the same time.
But obviously one always go for the point that requires less effort and that implies more satisfaction, which is obviously the point of relationships, and you can already make an idea of how it went for me on the exams, my performance was bad, to say the least, and this has also been quite an opportunity to make again a list of priorities, which wasn’t only about sex, I mean, this includes also drawing and reading, and you know, all the things that one enjoy to do, and after a small chat with one person that has always been like that point of support since the beginning of my process, I had to reconsider again if my starting point within the study of my career is really what is best for all, or if is it that I have diverted my attention to other things.
I can only get to the conclusion that my commitment is still insufficient, and that I am allowing other things to take direction and control instead of actually looking at the point, which is the implementation of an equal capitalistic system to do what is best for all life, and instead of that I began to give importance to other things like survival and money, and you know, the whole point of the revenge of the ego.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place value and worth over relationships giving to them all my attention instead of allowing myself to really stand for the solution that is best for all life
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to occupy my mind with relationships and sex instead of studying to be able to create real dominion of myself within the studying of laws and rights
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to fear to studying really committed to search a solution because I know that the implications of this are to maybe have to place aside my projects for a moment and real focus on what I have to do.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take for granted that the school was going to be easy by not realizing that by placing that idea on my mind as a point of superiority I have not allowed myself to really stand and do what is necessary to be done to really understand and learn in the school by giving onto the dimensions of love and relationships
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to follow the self interests instead of applying myself really committed for a change that will really support me and other with the implementation of an equal capitalistic system
And I am aware that I didn’t really spoke about the dimensions of love in this blog, but I really wanted to share this.
Till the next joke…